Imagine waking up each morning twenty minutes before your alarm, heart pounding chest tight limbs restless- every day. Not for fear of oversleeping. In withdrawal. Because your meds only last twelve hours. This morning is brought to you by design; orchestrated by Merck and Pfizer and companies that make psych meds addictive on purpose so that you don’t stop taking them. You wake every morning in panic and physical discomfort. Fumble with bottles on your nightstand, watch the clock tick until it is officially time because if you take them too early the withdrawals precipitating your next dose twelve hours later are worse. You must lie awake and trembling, nauseous and itchy, and then you must obey to ease the symptoms of your chemical dependency. Imagine a lifetime of these mornings with no weekends off. Even bleary-eyed, hungover from the night before, being constricted awake always too early by the tentacles of ziprasidone hydrochloride- by the feeling that you are crawling out of your skin. Would you look forward to tomorrow?
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Poetic and devastating. Sincerely, your new subscriber.
I wish there could be an effective alternative to pills... Unfortunately I think the answer to your question is obvious.